SEMI-LOCKED. [Thursday August 2008 at 7:37pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Stars - Your Ex-Lover is Dead ] 50% LOCKED. feel free to comment on public entries even if you don't have an LJ account or we aren't friends, but add me to read the deeper stuff. I like meeting people, so I'll probably add you back. 12 & vous?

Literature [Monday August 2008 at 1:18pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | Frou Frou - Shh ] ( READING LIST 2006/2007 ) 5 & vous?

[Friday June 2007 at 3:38pm] !!! ornare !!! NEW JOURNAL. PLEASE ADD IT, IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY... I REALLY MISS YOU ALL :( 1 & vous?

Inspired by stfu_jaide, I want: [Saturday February 2007 at 11:57pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | carla bruni - ciel dans une chambre ] sunshine, literature, 3 4 A's, to speak fluent french, a full ipod, a gold nameplate necklace, eudaimonia, wisdom, to understand politics, a black kitten called ruby, to take arty photos, a full text message inbox, thin arms and legs, a new hair cut and colour, defined cheekbones, a soulmate, to walk in skyscraper stilettos, to write a book that goes on the A level syllabus, a signature scent, more confidence, friends in an indie band, to understand latin, a song written about me, people to smile more often, more heart to hearts, vodka, gigs every weekend, to work in a book/coffee shop, to be more assertive, to live in the city, an end to organised religion, spontaneity, the ability to dance, to be able to say what's on my mind. And you? ♥ PS. new layout... 2 & vous?

[Thursday January 2007 at 12:28am] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | The Rapture ] I'm loving the snow flurry outside. Please let it carry on through the night and settle so that I can skive off school tomorrow! I want to ditch a day of frees and sociology lessons which may as well be frees in favour of staying home in my pyjamas all day; drinking tea, preparing Language coursework [I'm writing a romantic-but-slightly-amusing-even-if-only-to-me novel extract about Paris, hurrah] and inevitably making snow angels. My only incentive for bothering at all is that I want my Blake essay back, but since Miss Allen lives all the way over in Brighton, I'm sure she'll make up some excuse about not wanting to drive so far in icy conditions and angle a day off anyway. I know she's crossing her fingers as much as I am; I read her MySpace blog!! I'm tempted to skive regardless of whether we have an 'official' day off, but I already got a letter from the school about that and I don't want Mrs Lawrence to think I'm rubbish when she's been so flattering. If I'm not late or absent, I'm always too tired/depressed/apathetic to even speak during her lessons these days. In fact, I barely nod in feighned polite agreement anymore - not good. Of course, the fact that they all start at 8.40am has nothing to do with it! Hm...Y'know how some people do rain dances? Do you think that there's an equivalent for snow? Actual sensible update with things of vague interest tomorrow. Perhaps. 2 & vous?

This summarizes my day better than my words could [Sunday January 2007 at 8:01pm] Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can’t move Awake but cannot open my eyes And the weight is crushing down on my lungs I know I can’t breathe And I hope someone will help me this time And your mother’s still calling you insane and I Swear that it’s different this time And you tell her you give in to the demons that possess her And that God never blessed her insides Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things Crawl back into bed to dream of a time when your heart was open wide And you loved things just because Like the sick and the dying And sometimes when you’re on You’re really fucking on And your friends they sing along And they love you But the lows are so extreme That the good seems fucking cheap And it teases you for weeks in its absence But you’ll fight and you’ll make it through You’ll fake it if you have to And you’ll show up for work with a smile And you’ll be better And you’ll be smarter And more grown up and a better daughter Or son, and a real good friend And you’ll be awake You’ll be alert You’ll be positive though it hurts And you’ll laugh and embrace all your friends And you’ll be a real good listener You’ll be honest You’ll be brave You’ll be handsome and you’ll be beautiful You’ll be happy Your ship may be coming in You’re weak but not giving in To the cries and the wails of the valley below And your ship may be coming in You’re weak but not giving in And you’ll fight it You’ll go out fighting all of them 1 & vous?

I used to think life's a bitter pill, but it's a grand old time [Tuesday January 2007 at 8:11pm] [ music | The Rapture - W.A.Y.U.H ] RESOLUTIONS 2007 . write articles for school newspaper if it ever materialises/for various online zines . apply for an internship at the KM or similar . get a part time job . read all the books on my reading list & any others - 20ish is the number I'm working towards . lose 28lbs . go to the gym on wednesday pd 4 with Becky every week . join an excerise class/stock up on exercise videos to do at home . start learning french again . be a bit more confident and optimistic . stay motivated at school and suck up to teachers to become Head Girl! 5 & vous?

people don't dance no more, they just stand round like this [Thursday December 2006 at 6:25pm] [ music | The Rapture - Don Gon Do It ] "Journals are confusing. Sometimes we miss things or don't know something very simple like the writers first name. Its not a bad thing! So, if you have any questions about me then this is when you need to ask!" Go for it, loves :] 4 & vous?

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